I know it's been a while. That's because not much has really happened since my last post, just a lot of the same. But, I wanted to catch you all up on the little bit that did happen so I'm here typing out this probably very short post. Sorry bout that. So, my mom read my blog a couple weeks ago, basically right before I stopped posting, which may be one possible reason why I stopped. Anyway, she read it and thinks I need to see a counselor. So, May 25, 2011 I have an appointment with Dr. Fernbach. She specializes in my kind of stuff. I really hope it helps. I'm kind of not so keen on therapists because I really don't know how to be in therapy... I'm afraid of the judgement. She won't show it because it's her job not to, but I'm sure she'll be thinking it... I guess it's okay because she deals with people like me all the time, right? I guess we'll see how it goes. I'll keep you updated. Other then that, it's just been a lot of the same old stuff. Not a lot of pains, but definitely a lot of anxiety, especially at night. Last night was pretty bad, and then today I had a doctor's appointment (I have a bulging ear drum) and I just felt very anxious the whole time, like something really bad was going to happen. Nothing did, though... I don't know where those feelings come from. They're actually kind of new. I always had, what the doctors call, anxiety, I guess, but I never really had these scared feelings as much as I do now... Anyway, I feel like I'm just rambling about nothing, so I think I will sign off and hopefully have something more interesting to type about next time. Peace.