I found out that I had cancer. Then I went to live with my dad who was very depressed and angry all the time. His dog and my dog were both very sick as well. He was living in a very small apartment. He went to visit his mother every day, who, was so very near death herself, in a hospital/institution for dying and mentally ill patients. He brought his dog with him everywhere he went. Then my dog died and his just kept getting sicker. While we were visiting my grandmother we had some interactions with other people. In one instance we found out that a friend of mine (no one I know in my waking life) also had cancer and had a tumor in her face. I put my dog on the table and he got very angry. His phone/beeper kept going off but he didn’t want to answer it or even see who was calling. I knew that it was his wife. I had gone upstairs to his apartment to put some of his stuff up there and I accidentally left the door open when I came back down. I told my dad about his phone and he got even angrier at me. I went upstairs to bring more stuff up and get my dog off the table and when I went up I saw that it had rained into the open door (I had also seen it raining in my mind’s eye while I was downstairs talking to my dad) and had flooded the sink and all the dishes and made the entire apartment wet, including the floor and my dog. I had tried to clean it up really fast so my dad would not see it and get more mad than he already was, but he came up the stairs as I was dumping a dish of water into the other side of the sink, (only one side of the sink was flooded) and when he saw it he flipped out.
After I had the dream, I woke up and immediately typed it out. Then, I went online and found a meaning for each important aspect of my dream. Here are those meanings:
Cancer:
To dream that you have cancer, denotes hopelessness, grief, self-pity, and unforgiveness. You feel you are wasting your life away. This dream also represents areas in your life which are bothering you, disturbing you, and hurting you in some emotional way.
To dream that someone has cancer, indicates that you need to change your negative way of thinking before it eats away at you. Start being more positive.
Depression:
To feel depressed in your dream, refers to your inability to make connections. You are unable to see the causes of your problems and consequences of your decisions. People who are depressed in their waking life often have dreams about being depressed. Pay attention to what is depressing you in your dream and see how it relates to your waking life.
Anger:
To dream that you are holding or expressing anger, symbolizes frustrations and disappointments in your Self. You tend to repress your negative emotions or project your anger onto others. You need to look within yourself.
Being angry in your dream may have been carried over from your waking life. Dreams function as a safe outlet where you can express your strong and/or negative emotions. You are suppressing your anger and aggression, instead of consciously acknowledging them.
Father:
To see your father in your dream, symbolizes authority and protection. It suggests that you need to be more self-reliant. Consider also your waking relationship with your father and how aspects of his character may be incorporated within yourself.
Dog:
If the dog is dead or dying, then it means a loss of a good friend or a deterioration of your instincts.
Sick:
To dream that you or others are sick, denotes discordance and trouble in your life. It may signal a part of yourself that needs to be healed, either physically or mentally. Perhaps you are wallowing in your own self-pity. You need to quit feeling sorry for yourself.
Apartment:
To dream about an apartment, symbolizes a financial or situational state. To dream of a shabby and dark apartment, indicates misfortune and possible loss.
Hospital: To see or dream that you are in a hospital, symbolizes your need to heal or improve your physical or mental health. You need to get back to the flow of everyday life. Alternatively, the dream suggests that you are giving up control of your own body. Perhaps you are afraid of losing control of your body.
Mental Institute: To dream that you are in a mental institution, indicates a need for rest and a need to reset your mind. Don’t be afraid to ask for help/assistance when you need it. To dream that you are outside a mental institution, suggests that you are feeling ostracized or shunned. You may be close to a mental breakdown. Or you are feeling left out, excluded and ignored.
Death: To dream about the death of a loved one, indicates that whatever that person represents has no part in your own life anymore.
Tumor: To dream that you or someone has a tumor, suggests that some repressed memory or feeling remains unsettled and is threatening to emerge into your consciousness. You need to confront these issues. Consider where in the body is this tumor located for additional symbolism.
Table: To see a table in your dream, represents social unity and family connections. If the table is broken, wobbly or not functional, then it suggests some dissension in a group. It may also refer to a sense of insecurity. Perhaps there is something you cannot hold inside any longer and need to bring it out in the open.
Cell Phone: To see or use a cell phone in your dream may signify lack of understanding. Perhaps you are having difficulties getting through to someone. To see or hear a telephone in your dream, signifies a message from your unconscious or some sort of telepathic communication. You may be forced to confront issues which you have been avoiding. Alternatively, the telephone represents your communication and relationship with others. To dream that you do not want to return a call or answer a ringing telephone, indicates a lack of communication. There is a situation or relationship that you are trying to keep at a distance. To dream that the telephone is constantly ringing, means that some message is not coming through properly.
Beeper: To see a pager in your dream, suggests that someone is trying hard to communicate their thoughts to you. Someone is trying to get through to you one way or another. On the other hand, you may feel that someone is pushing their beliefs and ideas onto you.
Stepmother: To see your stepmother in your dream, could be a pun that you or someone is “stepping” all over your mother. Show her some appreciation and compassion for all the work that she does.
Door: To dream that you are entering through a door, signifies new opportunities that are presented before you. You are entering into a new stage in your life and moving from one level of consciousness to another. In particular, a door that opens into the inside, denotes your desire for inner exploration and self-discovery.
Rain: To see and hear rain falling, symbolizes forgiveness and grace. Falling rain is also a metaphor for tears, crying and sadness.
Flood: To see a gentle flood in your dream, indicates that your worries over a certain matter will soon be swept away.
Sink: To see a sink in your dream, represents your feelings and your ability to control your emotions. You may need to cleanse yourself of past feelings and start fresh. The symbol may also be a pun on “sinking” or drowning.
Floorboards: To notice the floorboards in your dream, suggests that you are being protective of the things that are important to you. Alternatively, it indicates that you are guarded about something in your unconscious. If the floorboards are loose, then it means that you are unsure of the ground that you are standing on. You are feeling insecure about something that you should not be insecure about.
Wet: To dream that you are wet, indicates that you are overcome with emotions.
Cleaning: To dream that you are cleaning, implies that you are removing some negativity in your life and overcoming major obstacles. You are moving ahead toward a new stage in your life. In particular, if you are cleaning your house, then it means that you need to clear out your thoughts and get rid of your old ways and habits. You are seeking self-improvement.
Dishes: to dream that you are washing dishes, suggests that you are moving on and planning for the next thing that comes your way. Alternatively, it represents your daily routine. Perhaps you are in a rut.
Water: To see water in your dream, symbolizes your unconscious and your emotional state of mind. Water is the living essence of the psyche and the flow of energy. It is also symbolic of spirituality, knowledge, healing and refreshment. To see muddy or dirty water in your dream, indicates that you are wallowing in your negative emotions. You may need to take some time to cleanse your mind and find internal peace. Alternatively, the dream suggests that your thinking/judgment is unclear and clouded. To dream that the water is rising up in your house, suggests that you are becoming overwhelmed by your emotions.
Each aspect seems to go together, according to the symbolic meanings. This dream makes a lot of sense in my life right now, but it also scares me. My next post will be somewhat of an explanation so that you may better understand where this dream came from.
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